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10月6日 Alchemy"Paulo Coelho is a genius" that is what my Fatima said to me when I decribed the book I was reading. She had already read it, in fact recommended it to me. His book is profound if only in its simplicity and deeply resonating truth. In my readings of Jung and studies of consultants, "The Alchemist" is scientifically and proven as a work of genius, similar to other great stories for example "The Lord of the Rings","The Matrix", "David Copperfield", some greek tales and the like. genius as described by my authorities is the ability to communicate with the subconcious and collective subconcious freely. Without a doubt this book will communicate with any persons subconcious touching on drives and struggles within each of us and more importantly for my ego, drives and struggles within me. I wont spoil it for anyone who will one day find my digitalized words but all I can say is that it is the path to God and godliness that mankind has to take and which precious few individuals find.
Alchemists are the ancient practicioners of transmutation, changing of one state to another. As mankind slowly changes from physical to digital, psychological and spiritual we are being subjected to the alchemy of our own destiny. We are being transmuted. Back to a personal level, I am also transmuting. Like precious metal I must feel the pain of heat and the blow of the hammer so that I can be shaped and molded and changed into the treasure that I seek. I am the metal but I am also the crafter and I am the adventurer seeking to find myself, the most sacred of philosophers stones. I have written it before in a more scientific tone, but all things are one, and I am the alchemist of my destiny.
I may have forgotten my dreams, wandered astray but I can see the omens again, thanks to my Fatima. I too will touch the face of God and be an Alchemist. 3月14日 ControlI wake up and nuclear war hasn't driven the race to near extinction, at least thats what the newspapers say. I wont read the newspapers yet because that would take too much cognitive effort. I get into a tram which I hope will take me nearish to my destination. A plastic card in my pocket; I have given it the power to grant me conveyance from location to location on the tram. The driver is not drunk it seems and stops at all the tram stops. As I sit with my head down scribbling my insanity I listen to the PA system which does not mislead me and pays me and the other passengers the courtesy of informing us which stop the tram has reached. Today the PA system alerts my stop at my stop and I get off. No one killed me on the tram. It did not explode or carry us to a slaughter house or processing plant. I wait for a bus which normally drives the route. Buses show up on schedule until the one I hope should take me to work passes by. I use the plastic card again and miraclously it works again indicating that I can travel until the 20th without having to perform fellatio on the driver or some thug to get to work. I wont have to walk this week. This driver doesnt appear to be under the influence of any narcotics either. The bus company apparently hires some good drivers on the route I take. Even though I have never again met these men or women the supply on non-homicidal drivers seems to be in good supply. I head to work which I trust is still there. I still have a job. I am hoping that they still pay me for 'working' there. Even getting paid is tricky. At the end of the month I pray earnestly that the spiteful bitches in payroll show me enough pity to transfer my stipend into my bank account. My understanding of the bank is that I pay them to keep my money and they allow me to access some of it every now and then. I use this money to go to a store with. At the store their policy is to exchange my money for non-poisonous items which were reportedly culled of various ground provisions, trees and animals. Some of my food I presume is processed in machines and bears no semblance of the food they reportedly come from. Hopefully no humans were used to supply the meat. Not that I care for the humans but I have been brought up to abhor the taste of man-flesh. The fruit and vegetables also have benign sounding origins so I cook and eat these without too much trouble. Of course I do all this so I can wake up the next day, or at least thats what I hope. 7月2日 Just 4 the N1&&4ZI look at you,
I call you a fool,
You are a little bitch,
why dont you switch,
your genter officially,
you are not the same as me.
I am sick of your sight,
you are nothing but a blight,
you have no use,
You human refuse,
bend over and take it,
from them you shit.
I glance and retch,
you stupid wretch,
not worthy of being a beast,
you are trulet THE least,
I wil feel better at last,
when you are in the past.
6月26日 BeautyBeauty is skin deep, ugly to the bone,
I surround myself with beauty, thats why I walk alone.
A pretty girl picks the one she wants to date,
an ugly boy is coy and has to masturbate.
Beauty is genetics and cruel twists of fate,
beauty is advantage in your choice of mate,
beauty is effort and wasted time in life,
beauty finds a husband, beauty finds a wife,
beauty is despair for those who cant compete,
beauty is as beauty does; Gump I must repeat.
Beauty trancends physical reaches to the mind,
beauty of the mental realm, very hard to find.
Beauty can be accidental or virgin turf,
beauty is the terrain,foliage.sky and surf.
Beauty is in beginnings, beauty is in first breath,
Beauty is in silence, beauty is ash and death.
That MomentHear me speak:
Right before I enter for the first,
and drown to quench my ravishing thirst
I search for that one unique moment,
that look and sound of complete consent
The build up of welcoming tension
for the inevitable, yet unmentioned
the jittery skittery anticipation,
the needy greedy frustration.
with hungry hands and pleeding eyes,
with growning heat and restless thighs,
and explosive bloom of buds and flower
complete surrender of her power.
That is what I seek. 4月5日 PlayerI see you and I want you
and finally you come shining like the sun I take hold of you, your smooth curves your texture, your firmness your rich scent I touch you and i take off Others try to touch, to take hold of you, but I guard you jealously, you are mine. my heart soars as we near the climax
we are as one, your rythm becomes mine up and down, my heart beats as I pump I take hold of you as I soar Up Up Up, I close my eyes for a second and draw you close I reach out with you I am so close, as are you, and for the eternity of a second we move through the air. Dunk.
And its over, the crowd roars, and you go to another, but i will see you again, soon. Die AloneIf I should die, I want to die alone please dont cry I am only flesh and bone If I must go
I will not drag you down I wish you could know how you made me less alone If I live I swear
I will give my life to you you alone do I hold dear please belive me its true But let me die alone and maybe weep my death but say no more to me Save your tears and breath 4月3日 Dethquietly creeping up
to spill my gut
to empty my cup
to swallow me up
ever peeking,
ever creeping
ever sneaking
ever seeping
one day I will look back
and there she will be
the lady in black
to kiss me.
8月3日 HollowHollow That’s how my heart feels now Like a grave freshly dug I wish I had a hug I struggle to hide My emotional suicide My heart beats to a cease Love didn’t renew its lease Forensic tape now spread My heart, my life is now dead. 5月28日 IncoherentI ramble,my scrambled brain can only register pain, and as clouds of genius float by, i sigh. |
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